Writing a Journal

I can compare my journal experience with going through a Puerto Rican road: sometimes good, others bumpy, most of them with a lot of holes and moments that you really want to kill someone. At first, I though the journal was a great idea because I could get out everything that was on my mind and it would probably help me cool down in situations. What I really didn’t think about was the fact that I am a pretty open person so, most of the time, I say whatever is on my mind.

I wrote 42 entries during the weeks we were supposed to write, and stopped as soon as the weeks were over because writing the journal took time that I needed, and, as I already said: I am a pretty open person, so I think I do not need it that much. That being said, it did help me with those things that always remain in one’s filter, that we avoid saying for our own sake or the sake of others and it made me realize I am probably a terrible human being.  Since the concept of this journal is writing first thoughts, it’s amusing how one can fear oneself after reading some journal entries, just as if another totally different person just got out and spoke its mind. I have to admit sometimes it was difficult just to write everything in my mind because there are some thoughts that one avoids even writing for fear of oneself becoming or thinking like a bad human being. Some of my entries showed a lot of pain and anger that is inside me and made me realize my inability to share that with other people.

Another good side of keeping a journal is the use it can have in the future. Throughout our lives, there are many small things that happen that are nice and that we wish to keep them in our memories. The problem is that we forget them and we lose those bits of life. With a journal one can write the small things so when you read it in the future you are like: “Oh right! That happened that day!” and be all amazed and happy that you remember.

Also, to be honest, I have not experienced any significant change in my writing after the journal. The only thing I can immediately think about is the fact that I am probably more fluid and creative with my thoughts, but that is pretty much it. As an example of this, if I were to talk about some specific entry, I should say that one of my favorites is one in which I talk about church people. Once I finished writing it and read it, I noticed it was very funny and had a good laugh about it. My favorite phrase on that entry would be: "I really hate how they think they are more holly than anyone else and they prance around nature with a halo and wings just like: Oh! Look at my halo! You would have one too if you weren't so evil!”. That entry was a good example of what in Spanish we say:"diantre, le salió del alma" because it really showed the way I feel about the subject. '

       Anyways, and to be done, for all the people wondering whether to have a journal (FOR FUN) or not, I just have these words for you: Keeping a journal is good, it helps you know yourself better. 

This right here is my journal.
I always thought that if there is something that
can describe me almost completely it would
be this journal's cover.